dude. i am alive

so i have been hanging out with this one friend all week.
i love her to death
but
SHE JUST DOESNT LISTEN
or more like she has only on topic to listen to,
herself + this guy
that guy already has a gf (they went out awhile ago) but now shes like

he loves me more (yadda yadda) and im like HE HAS A GF! your the other women XD
and yeah, i mean get it and its fun to talk about
BUT
i am alive to!
listen to me!
i texted her tonight and said how i probably wouldnt be able to go to this BIG dance at the end of the year and she says
"oh darn. you wont be able to see us {that guy} together!"
im like SHEESH!
yeahh, //thats// why im sad, not because there is this guy I wanna go with or anything.
so i said
"um sure."
and she said " i will take pics [of us] for you!"

and i mean i love her but, its kinda bugging me.
i've been looking forward to this since 6th grade ans she didnt bother to ask why i culd go.
thanks a heap.
sorry for the long rant.
you see, nobody listens

Dude: you need to listen by on Polyvore.com

im holding my tongue: but i hate. . . this

I cant see why you dont see it. I cry EVERY TIME we go out to lunch. I am LITERALY biting my tongue while you go on and on. I dont want to make a scene in public. but you make me so mad. i am not crying over my math grade.

i am not crying because math is to hard for me.

i am not crying because math make me upset.

i am not crying because i am sad.

I am crying because YOU MAKE ME ANGREY.

All you ever say to me is "how was school?"

"how was math?"

"wait. you dont have an A yet?"

"whats wrong with you?"

"we need to get you help"

i hate. . i want to say "you" so much but im trying to control it.

I hate that all you care about is my grade.

i used to be proud of myself when i got A's

now. . . i cry.

I didnt realize that i was... what am i?

apparently, i really do dress/look scene. ek!

I didn't realize it was this serious. My friend who is quite.. well actually we are more alike now told me i was looking sceneie. And if shes thinking it, chances are other people are thinking it. Not that I am scared of what other people think, I just don't honestly want to be thought of as scene! I admit that before. . . yes i kinda did, but now. . . not so much :? i kinda was doing thinking and I'd rather dress like

an ACTUAL prep.

NOT holister, Abercrombie, areo, ect.

But A REAL prep by my (and kate's) definition, a clean cut, natural pretty, and not revealing kinda. Get it?

dang. kate sure rubs off on me. Now everyone is gonna think im a hypocrite but oh well!

I NEED A STYLE CHANGE :)

they are good every once in a while. already like 3 this year(:

to infinity and BEYOND!

-amelia